My gosh....could this be....an update??!!

Well hello there, all!

Finally updating after an eon of silence. So whats been going on with me? Loads. But i'll give it you in a nutshell. I have moved back to my home now after my husband and I decided to give it another go. I moved back here in December so that I could spend christmas here. Everything was great, christmas passed busily and happily as usual....but was however tainted by a hoard of unpacked boxes laying around. This was due to me thinking it would be a great idea to move back a week before christmas. Thats just me all over though. I function on instinct, act on impulse, live day to day and let my heart rule my head. I had hoped that by now I would have grown out of living that way, but it seems to be a trait that is firmly embedded.

Anyway, due to me acting impulsively, it turned out that moving back home was yet another rash decision and example of my heart ruling my head. Things have not worked out. They did at first, but I have accepted that my marriage will never work out long term. Its a sad process, almost like a bereavement, but this time, I am much more prepared for what is to come. I did all my grieving the first time round. So the next thing is just to sort out the legal separation, the house and the finances…and of course the children. We will make it as painless as we can for them, obviously – but it was never going to be easy. The only positive thing I can say is that they are likely to have much happier parents and a much more serene atmosphere around them once we are separated.

Moving on, I now have a new job. I am still teaching, but this new job is full time and considerably more money! Its at a college that has a great reputation and wonderful resources; and its still local. I get 12 weeks paid holiday a year and I never work weekend or nights (obviously). So everything fits! I start there at the end of August and finish my current contract next Wednesday – so I have a nice summer break before I start.

I’m going to have to get some sort of job over the summer though, so I’m going to get a bar job, I think. I have always enjoyed bar work and it will give me some extra pocket money to tide me over. I may try and get some singing gigs again too, if I can borrow the equipment of my friend, that is! When I get this new job, though, I’m buying my own gear.

I’m still love my nights out and am actually off out tomorrow night to see the ‘Ladyboys of Bangkok’. They are a group of transsexual Tai men who put on a show. You honestly would NOT know that they are men – at all. Many men feel really weird and uncomfortable watching the show because these ‘men’ are often so much more physically attractive than ‘real’ women! Nothing worse than getting involuntarily aroused, lol. I'll probably blog about how it went on Sunday.

I’ll close this entry now but will regularly update from now on xxx