Christmas, headphones, baked-beaned porn students....and career changes

Well yet again its been an age since I updated...but never mind - moving right along.

I am doing OK right now, working tons of hours and having not enough time to myself - but its all goooood i guess. Getting the money in for christmas.

I love christmas.

Lots of glitter and food and drink - and presents. Love it! Its always a big deal for me. I sit down on christmas eve and read festive stories with the kids whilst scroffing mince pies. Rudolph gets his traditional carrot left for him whilst Santa gets his glass of milk and a mince pie (I trid to tell the kids that Santa likes Brandy - but they tell me every year how he cant drink and drive *rolls eyes*....*winks*)

The festive feeling is everywhere right now. I know that people get peeved when its in your face as you walk around the shops - a money making racket really - but I just love it. I could spend hours shopping for Xmas decorations and so forth. I adore white christmases too - although contrary to popular belief about England, we dont have many of them here.

I am ready to spend a fortune on the kids. I dont know why I do. My kids are like thousands of others across the country - they forget about thier prezzies almost the second after they have opened them. They are greatful kids though, I must admit - they never ask for much.

I really need to get me some headphones for my computer too. I was chatting to friends on Skype the other night (out of my face I may add - sorry girls *hangs head*). Anyway - they can all actually talk properly to each other because they have headphone thingys - but I had to type, which is not the easiest thing to do when you are drunk. Mind you, that in mind, it was probably a blessing that they couldnt hear me. Anyways, its great to actually hear the voices of people who live the other side of the world from you as though they were in the same room. These are girls I have known for such a long time now, so to hear thier voices was just great!

....and Micki i have no idea why i told you you sounded English! i read over our convo the next day. I was mortified!! A 'feeney worshipper.!!?? WTF?? I swear, you know those people who just get seriously annoying when they are drunk? Well thats me, for my sins.

I am currently supping some wine whilst having five minutes to myself. After a long working day, i came home, cooked tea...blah, blah, blah.....and then had to go late nigt shopping - ugh!!

I live in 'student-ville- you might say. My local supermarket is like a scene out of one of those low budget Brit flicks - ya know the kind - just full of kids who are in serious need of a hair-cut or who have no hair at all, all trudging around with various brands of baked beans and packets of pasta in thier shopping trollies - arguing over whether or not they can afford a 'big cheese' between them or whether to get a 'small cheese' because only a couple of them out of a shared house of 100 residents actually like it.

Desisions desisions.

Talking of desisions, I have made one about my career. I'd like to re-train as a primary school teacher. Today, I listened to my students discussing the details of a slice of pornography that one of them had on thier mobile phone. I mean as much as I have nothing against a bit of sexual exploration, I obviously have to draw the line at something like that when they were supposed to be getting on with a lesson in personal safety (which, incidently they dont need to ttend because they know all about it already...*sigh*) - but will they listen to me? My words of warning filter silently and pathetically into the air and fall upon deaf ears as they laugh it up in a place where most of them simply dont want to be anyway. I would never give up on the students I teach - I really like most of them - but teaching has to be easier than this, right?

Right!

In a primary school, I will get to make cakes.

Celebrity Lookalikes - hilarious!

Just a bit of fun here, folks. This craze is sweeping the net! I'm seeing these everywhere! You post ya pic and your face gets put through a recognition thingy....and it throws out your celebrity look alikes.

Some are so, so funny! *shakes head*. Mine is no exception - I look like Jessica Alba apparently...yea right! Wish I could have been in Haydens arms like she was....

...Brooke Shields and Cindy Crawford too! I'm lovin' that!

I have been told that I look like a young Bette Davis and have also been told off someone I look like Virginia Madson! I can't see this myself though i'd like to add. None of them came up though anyway...



Have a go yourselves at this...(www.myheritage.com)....and let me know the results if you can! These things are so cool.

Finally updating.....

Hey all

It has been ages since I have updated - as you can see. So i'm here tonight to fill you all in on what has been going on with me. If you havent lost interest of course!

Me and Hubby...

Well, my hubby and I have reconciled since my last update. I dont need to go into detail - but lets just say I am very happy that we have managed to get our act together and sort things out.

He hasn't moved into my new home here yet and I haven't moved back to my old home either (and dont intend to)...but in time, we will hopefully become a proper family unit once more. We are taking things slowly....it like courting again!! The guy does still have romance in him! (he's just a little slow with it...but hey! he's a guy, so needs to be forgiven for that I guess *winks*)

The new house

Well its coming on - but man it was blank canvass!! UGH!! I have had to do everything to this place! Decorate it from top to bottom. My pocketts are well and truely hollow right now from ploughing every last morsel of dosh into trying to make this place feel like home.

On the positive side, I have found that I have skills that I never thought I had in terms of the ol' decorating side of things! I did my hallway all by my lil' ol' self! *sports cheesy grin*. Micki - i'm sure you would would have done it for me wouldnt you babe, hmmm?? (apparently she loves decorating...)

Anyway - it all cool with the house. I have some very choice neighbours though...but nothing thats warrents wear and tear on my keyboard.

The Kids...

The kids are settled. I still live in the same area (well not far) - and so they they still see all the same people and go to the same school, so there hasnt been much upheaval for them. Its one big adventure doing the house up and stuff.

My eldest starts her new school in next week - which has cost me a small fortune in uniform I might add!!

My boy has started Karate lessons - he is really good too! Daniel Larusso eat ya heart out! LOL..

My baby is gorgeous as usual...but so cheeky. She is a baby Feeney through and through and thinks she rules the roost here..

Work...

I actually have a sideline right now - singing! I have done a couple of 'gigs' in which people have been treated to my wailing - and paid for it!! LOL!! Hopefully more bookings will come in time and provide me with some extra beer money.....er...I mean money for kiddy treats of course...er hem...*rolls eyes*

As for my 'real job' - well i start again at my local college in a couple of weeks. Only part-time...and that is more than enough for now. I do love teaching though and am looking forward to it.

....and thanks to you all....

To everyone who left comments on my last entry. Thank you so much for your love and support over my troubled times. I'm sure there will be more ahead for me - but thats life right? But for now....just pulling on the theme of this blog for a moment...lets just say I am enjoying some scrummy chocolates from my box...

I'm moving house tomorrow...

Hey all

A more personal update this time. I'm moving house tomorrow - signalling the dissolution of my marriage once and for all. Needless to say, I am feeling just down right sad right now. I'm looking at the packed boxes surrounding me and am trying to equate the damage thats gonna be caused by yet another Dawn 'fuck-up' *rolls eyes* (yea...those who know me will know that fucking up is something I do consistantly *sigh*)

I still love my husband and will miss him very much, but this is something I just have to do. Jumping on the Star Wars train for a moment...I have to say that a while ago (when I first decided to leave) - the words of Obi Wan Kenobi in Episode II came to mind....and I added them to a pic of me and my husband on our wedding day....



Its a long story and I will not go into it here. Although this blog is about 'me' - there are some things only those closest to me need to know, so I wont be posting it on the net. All I have to say is that this is going to be one of the hardest things I have ever done.

I am so sad to leave my home - I have brought two of my children home here from the hospital when they were newborns...and raised them here ever since..

I will update here when I am in my new home...

ATTENTION ALL PEODOPHILES!! THE UK IS HEAVEN FOR YOU!! (warning - this entry may be distessing)

Sorry for thse of you (Micki) who were expecting a lighthearted blog entry next - but I just HAD to vent here on something that has upset me beyond comprehension tonight. I have been refelecting on the law 'against' child sex crime in this country - and have found that we may as well be saying this to all peodophiles (regarding the UK)....

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To Peodos everywhere...


It great for y'all here you know!! Guess what!?! In the UK - you can kidnapp, torture, rape and destroy the life of a 3 year old child and get away with it!! You can even rape a 12 week old baby, take photos, stick them in a photo album and on the net - and get away with it too!! Its so great for you all here, isn't it? The law in this country is made to protect all you guys!

If you do get sent to prison - guess what? We'll put you in a special wing full of perverts - you will get your own TV; your own room; playstation etc - and will even allowed to chat to all the other child abusors about your crimes and your victims because they'll all be in there with ya! One big happy pervert family!

And here is the icing on the cake for ya - (you are gonna love this!). If you are in prison in this country - we will let you watch pornography and also let you watch childrens TV so you can get a daily dose of innocent children to jerk off over in your moments of solitude!! You know why? Because apparently we would be infringing upon your human rights if we didn't let you!!

Talking of human rights - here is another plus of UK law for all you freaks of human nature....when you get out of prison (you'll get out before your sentence is spent of course, because you'll be let out early on parole)- you will be given a home, a new identity and everything! All paid for by the tax-payor! No-one who lives near you will be allowed to know who you are because that would infringe upon your human rights too! Therefore, you are free to survey, kidnapp and abuse any child that takes your fancy!

In any case, I really wouldnt worry about going to prison or anything anyway - because like I said, the chances are that the Judge who sentences you will think that its OK to rape children and will likely send you home with a slap on your wrist, saying its not your fault due to problems with potty training when you were younger or something - so no worries!!

I mean really - could the UK be more accomadating for you?

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OK OK....hopefully anyone reading this will likely have surmised that I am being sarcastic here.....but really....the UK law right now is just one big advertisement for the most evil scum that mankind has to offer to come and live here. There is just NO DETERRANT WHATSOEVER for peodophiles not to commit crimes here.

What has sparked my fury? A string of cases recently surrounding child abuse that could have been prevented if dickheads and perverts were not creating the law in this country. I wont go into detail - but just to outline one recent case I saw on the news tonight...

A pervert freak who was already convicted of abusing hildren was released early to a bail hostel. He was 'cured' apparently. Anyway - this now outstanding member of society - who no longer posed a threat to kids - then abducted a 3 year old child from her own home and took her back to the bail hostel where he lived. He then subjected this poor innocent baby to hours of violent sexual torture...and then threw her out of a moving car..

I am crying now as I am writing this...that poor childs is now scarred forvever...failed by a system that is geared around supporting her attacker instead of her. The bastard could be out in 6 fuckin years - free as he like to do it again.

You know what the probation service said? They said that there was no indication that this guy was going to commit this crime!!! ARE THEY FUCKIN STUPID??!!!!!!!! THE GUY WAS ALREADY A CONVICTED PEODOPHILE!!??? So how was he EVER NOT a threat?? Before or after he raped a kid??

In another recent case (mentioned before - about the 12 week old baby) - the perv got just 5 years (and then it was extended to 6 years...

In another case of the attempted rape of another 3 year old - her attacker got off completely - he walked free from court! The Judge said he believed the guy was just 'experimenting' and got carried away..

Another guy raped his own daughter hundreds of times over the years - from childhood - and got just 10 years..

I mean what is it with these Judges? (there are loads more cases I could highlight - but you've heard enough, right?). I tell you what it is...they are all fuckin perverts and peodos themselves, thats what!! I mean what decent human being would NOT lock someone like that up and throw the book at them? These bastard Judges are just as guilty of child rape as the pervs themselves IMO. It wouldnt surprise me if they read the details of the case and got off on them in thier chambers. Being too harsh am I? No fuckin way. Thats how it is - it must be! There is no other explanation.

They cant even say thier arms are tied by law - because as shit as the law is, so many of these evil bastards still get a hell of a lot less than what they should have or could have got.

Sentencing is just one side of things - all the things I mentioned at the beginning of this blog entry (in my 'message' to peopdos everywhere) just make it easier and easier for peodos to operate in the UK. I swear I do not know of any country that is worse. If anyone DOES know then please tell me because I am at a loss.

If someone is found with thousands of pics of child abuse on thier computor - they walk free!! Or at the very worst get only a few weeks - or community service or something shite like that!! Its fuckin evil madness!! I just feel so, so ashamed to be British right now. I really do.

Sometimes, you know what I wish I could do? I wish I could get these Human Rights fuckers....line them up one by one...and shoot them in the fuckin' head. And the second some perv looks at a pic of a kid....thinks of a kid....or touches a kid and gets off on it - then they should be shot in the head too (after thier piece has been cut off and fed to them, of course).

I soooooooooooooooooooooo wish the death penalty was brought back in this country - they deserve to die - and I would gladly watch and enjoy every second of it as they hung - I swear. Sometimes, I wish I lived in one of those countries (like some states in the US) that gave people the fuckin' chair for raping kids (some state still do do that, right? Maybe all my facts aren't straight on that side of things - but I think they do).

I am thinking of starting my own vigilante agency - wher people can hire me to wipe as many pervs off the face off the earth as I can. I'm sure that I would not be hard pressed to find hitmen to work for me. The government does nothing for abused kids...so some action needs to be taken now!!!

Anyway...

When is anybody going to realise that Peodophillic tendancies are NOT a part of or because of mental disorder?? The person is completely sane! It is simply a sexual preference! Thats all! Absolutely NOTHING in all the literature I have read will ever convince me otherwise.

I mean, for example, I am straight and Elton John is Gay....nothing in this life or the next is gonna make me stop fancying men - and nothing is gonna stop Elton John fancying men either! - exactly the same way no-one will EVER, EVER, EVER stop a peodo from fancying kids. Period. They are notorious for abusing again....and again.....and again!! They will NEVER STOP!! What does it fuckin take to get anyone to understand this???

The sooner these sick-minded 'do-gooders' realise that you can never ever rehabilitate a child sex offender - then and only then, will the world becaome a safer place.

*runs off to cry and pray for abused children everywhere and plot to start vigilante agency*

aaaggghh!!! - Stress!

This is me right now..



I am overworked!

I am swimming in paperwork, lesson plans and ten ton of stress this evening...*scowls*

shessh thank goodness this academic year is nearly over soon. You know when you get to that point that feels as though you are just tredding water? Consistantly moving but getting no-where fast? Well thats me tonight....*sigh*

My head hurts 'cause my daughter decided I would work better without my glasses apparently....I know shes hid them somewhere! (shes only 2 by the way...)

Well Ok...maybe I they have just been swallowed up within all this rubbish in front of me...hmmm

*searches rubbish in front of me for glasses*

.....nope! not there!

*scowls again*

You know what else? I am in the middle of moving house (decorating and all that jazz) whilst trying to complete various assignments - how the heck am I supposed to move when deadlines are even invading my dreams right now?...(yea they do! they take the form of little green men with numbers on thier heads and torment me in my fitful slumber! *pulls angry face*)

Also, because of the move, my finances are all over the place and I have about 1,000 000 calls to make to sort them all out!! Grrr!

OK enough of this small rant here...there are millions of people worse off then me...and at least i'm not bored...i'm never bored....I dont have time to get bored... and only boring people get bored anyway in my opinion...

...okay i'm boring myself now...

I'm off to have my Hayden fix and then i'm turning in for the night..



...ahh!! thats better...

Still and always lovin' 'The Karate Kid'

WARNING!! SPOILERS!



OK today, i'm feeling the Karate Kids films again...well OK...I always feel them...but what has caused me to plummet into the realm of retro nostalgia with this film? Well I saw this yesterday:

http://media.putfile.com/kkidvid

Its a fan film made by McFly of the KK message boards. I am in sheer awe of this video he created. He said that he made it as a tribute to the late great Pat Mortia - who we all know and love as Mr Miyagi (well OK...some of us know and love him...) - and what a wonderful job he has done with this!

The KK saga is in my blood - always has been. I still get shivers up my spine watching Daniel battle through with the will of a true hero and finally deafeat Johnny in that 'moment of truth' in the end scene.



It is one of those classic, timeless scenes that stays with you long after you watch the film. Its symbolic of how we all have that inner strength inside us and shows us that we CAN all beat the odds, come what may.

What is also amazing about the film is that it illustrates wonderfully how we win respect with what is in our hearts....goodness of spirit will always shine through and illuminate those around us. Mr Miyagi in his wisdom sees this spirit in Daniel; a troubled young boy without a father and dealing demons far away from home (Daniel has moved away with his mother from all his friends and everything he knows)...and by its grace, this spirt gives Miyagi the son he never had, after tragically losing his son many years earlier.

It initially seems as though Daniel needs Miyagi to overcome his strife...not just with Johnny and the Cobra kai - but the loss of his father and his old life too. However, looking deeper, its quite the opposite. Miyagi shows Daniel that although Daniel feels 'weak' and unable to find his place in his new life - the only person he needs is himself; he shows him that he has strength and spirit inside of him and that he alone must act upon it.



On the flip side though, as much as Daniel feels he needs and love Miyagi, it is not until KK 2 we see Daniel realise that Miyagi truely needs him too (and maybe its the point when Miyagi first realises it). The poignant scene of Miyagi mourning the death of his father in his home town of Okinowa (spelt wrong, i know!)takes thier relationship to a whole new level. Daniel recalls to Miyagi how he felt when his own father died...and within that scene, we see that Daniel has taught Miyagi just as much on thier journey as Miyagi has taught Daniel....he 'becomes' the teacher. Within this deeper understanding and kinship they gain at point, comes a formidable friendship and bond that simply makes the viewer feel all the more closer to the characters.

In the third (and what I class as the final installment of the saga), the viewer is sent reeling as the friendship is tested to the limit by the re-appearance of Kreese and his malevolent scheming partner, Terry Silver. Not to mention too much about this last chapter here (I will address it in another blog most likely!)...I will simply comment on how moved the viewer is as they see Miyagi pray for Daniels salvation, as Daniel is tricked into becoming the very thing Miyagi has guided him not to be. Of course, however, Daniel sees the light in the end - and the amazing climax of this saga gives us all hope and that formidable 'feel good' feeling.

Like I said, I will return to ranting about this in future blogs, but I will end this blog now with the wise words of Mr Miyagi..

"You have strong root...now you decide how you grow"

This is where the fun begins!

Hey all! Just thought i'd start my first blog post with a quote from one of my fave films - Revenge of the Sith. Spoken by the enigmatic Anakin Skywalker on his mission to rescue the corrupt Chancellor Palapatine; the quote encompasses Anakins love of action and battle as he and Obi Wan show the galaxy what it means to be Jedi...



Anyway, in this context, it simply signals the beginning of my blog entries - and my love of many things that are surrounding me right now.

My life is currently at somewhat of a transistion point and although many of the influences on my mood are negative; I am doing all anyone can as they 'eat the chocolates' of thier life:...dealing with the nice; the nasty; the surprising...and the downright unchewable as best I can.


As I muse about my interests here, you may read me spouting many opinions on the Star Wars saga which is my passion and main means of escapism when I need it. You'll also hear my consistant declarations of adoration for the above mentioned Anakin skywalker - or rather the for the amazing man that brought him to life - Hayden Christensen *swoon*



Ok, i'm off now. Tons of work to do!

C U later guys!